I’ve followed @visakanv for a few months now on Twitter and found his posts there extremely engaging. All of this content is hyper-threaded and tight, threads which reference other threads, linking back to old work, notes at the end to himself to where he could pick the thought back up, etc. On a whim I decided to buy his e-book Friendly, Ambitious, Nerds on Gumroad for about $8. Now I have a horrible habit I’m trying to correct of buying books that look interesting and then never getting to them. I have an entire BOOKSHELF of books that are on my to read list one way or another. So in the back of my mind I knew that FAN could be just another and I wouldn’t finish it.
I read it in about 2 days, entirely off my phone.
I never, ever read things off my phone. I can barely use a kindle it’s so weird to me. The past few months though, I’ve read 3 this way: FAN, Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality (which I’ve almost finished re-reading it’s so good) and Harry Potter and the Natural 20 (don’t ask why so many HP related works, I couldn’t tell you. Maybe I just needed something lighthearted). So the format was very significant to me, something about the short chapter length and having it easily accessible meant I could squeeze in pages here and there throughout the day, whereas sitting with a book in hand always seems like initially a greater time investment, the way that sometimes I go down Youtube clickholes looking up movei trailers instead of picking an actual movie on Netflix.
Anyways, on a whim I decided that I would do my best to start nerdposting on Twitter more and produce more blog content. I haven’t written for a blog in years now, and my last work was…pretty juvenile? So I’m out of practice. As such, this post is not meant to be a super deep reflection of everything in FAN or about Visa. Readers can explore both work for themselves. This is a collection of bits I found interesting, interjected with some of my own commentary that I might follow up with later. Also, since I’ve decided that all my blog posts will be more or less in an “editable” state, I will apply rules 3 and 5 from Lichtenbergianism, a mental system for leveraging procrastination to get more done, which I highly recommend to anyone who struggles with ADHD or procrastination. So while I may be a worried about the “incompleteness” or “imperfection” of this post, I’m overriding it with my desire to complete the task, rules 3&5 and the knowledge that I’ve threaded some good things in here to other work that I think people will find useful – and they may need that utility right away, even if the writing is tight yet.
Bearing that in mind, let’s start the show:
“I’m writing this because I want to encourage you to become a friendlier, nerdier and more ambitious person.” – Visa
Visa is nice enough to summarize his whole book for us in the first few pages.
1 page summary of the book:
FRIENDLINESS is about being a nourishing presence. It’s about becoming somebody who people (including yourself!) love and enjoy. It’s about creating supportive, encouraging spaces where people can feel comfortable sharing their honest feelings. Humans are a social species, we’re practically wired to desire kinship, to be a part of something bigger than ourselves. So why not get good at it? To be a great friend, I believe that it’s necessary to learn to address your own neediness and insecurities, and to cultivate an abundance mindset in relation to other people. Learn to give sincere compliments, to be a gracious host, to be artful in conversation, to always be a cherished asset in any social space you inhabit.
Why this speaks to me: “Asshole in Recovery syndrome”. When I was younger, I lacked a filter. You can call it ADD, or being a class clown, or having low executive function capacity. When I was a happy kid, this was mostly positive as I’d crack jokes or make connections that were mostly entertaining and harmless. Puberty however, hit like a rocket-boosted Mag-lev train directly into my skull. You don’t grow to 6’6” without a lot of changes, not to mention high school was not the most fun experience for me. So my jokes got darker, more cutting, more ad-hominem and over the line. I upset a lot of people and rationalized “Their loss, I’m hilarious and if they don’t get my black humor they don’t deserve my smart funny time.” But this was a lie I told myself and pushed a lot of people away. Unintentionally though I stumbled upon a weird benefit which I call the “Asshole filtering mechanism”. Whenever I found myself in a new social group I’d say something horrible and piss off 50% of people, 45% were indifferent, but the other 5% became friends for life. Perhaps it’s because they recognized that I way playing a game, and the game wasn’t “hurt people intentionally” it was “cross social boundaries intentionally and humorously, and note the reactions.” As such, I had a few very close confidants that I’d consider brothers, and a few more acquaintances who liked me, but would push back when I crossed their personal line. This took a long time for me to understand why it was wrong, both ethically and pragmatically. First of all, humor is like flirting – you need to find the right audience and the right game level to play it at. I was using a very acquired taste of humor on 100% of people I met, who didn’t necessarily like the game. And although other people’s reactions were not in my control, picking who to play the game with was something I could. The second is the general utility of “Friendliness”. Being friendly is extremely useful actual, and if you can make friends with many people or at least get along with them, they will open many doors for you. When I have my compulsion for dark or dirty humor, rather than drop in front of everyone like a bag of heroin at a New Years Eve party, I get my other friends who like heroin and we shoot up in private. (Note: this is a metaphor about dark humor being like a socially acceptable but extremely pleasant feeling and addictive drug, not ACTUALLY doing heroin, don’t do that kids). So in short, lesson learned. Hopefully. Be friendly, and if you have unconventional tastes that might make other people uncomfortable, find a scene or clique that enjoys the same and get it out there. Sort of like a safe space for being an asshole. Close friends are one for me, and stand up comedy is a second.
AMBITION is about daring to dream bigger. It’s about realizing that you can live a much “larger” life. It’s about recognizing that your own imagination is a bottleneck that limits the amount of good you can create in the world. Imagination deficit rules everything around me.”
My most ambitious projects were almost universally seen as “impossible” by people around me, from starting my university’s first iGEM team, to Asheville Fencing club.
NERDINESS is about cultivating taste and curiosity. It’s about developing the courage to be honest with yourself about what you find interesting. A lot of what is beautiful in the world was made by nerds – music, technology, science, movies, books, you name it. It’s a fundamentally nerdy thing to decide to sit down and spend years of your life exploring your interests. Doing this is a joy in itself, and it’s also a great gift that you can give to others. To be a nerd is to liberate yourself from over-preemptively worrying about what other people think. By doing the nerd’s work, you will develop a healthy, rigorous and honest regard for your own opinions. You’ll find, delightfully, that others start valuing your thoughts more, too!
Being a nerd is hard work and requires suppressing the wooly mammoth of judgement
It took me two decades to really begin to aspire to be kind. The smartest
people embrace their ignorance…Kindness nourishes (not coddles) fragile things and makes them strong.” New ideas are worth protecting and help blossom into something strong. If you expose it to criticism right away (Editor mode) you will kill it and dis-encourage your Creator mode.
A lot of the most interesting information in the world is locked up inside other people’s heads…People only started opening up to me in private in the last 3-5 years or so, and it’s completely changed my life. I mean, I did have conversations with a handful of close-ish friends a decade ago, but now I have people actively coming to me and telling me things that they wouldn’t dare say publicly. Sometimes you get people asking, “how do you compete with smarter people?” I find myself instead asking, “How do you win the love, trust, support & goodwill of smarter people, so that THEY are on YOUR side?”
Don’t fall into the local maximum of the “Asshole filter”, find a higher maximum called “Be friendly to everybody, and darkly humorous to a select few who enjoy that sort of thing.”
“You want to be so curious about people that you make them freshly curious about themselves. Why did you cringe, why did you flinch? Why did you frown, shudder, laugh, scoff? The body keeps the score.”
…the first person who offers you your first cigarette or drink tends to appeal to your independence. They’ll ask, “Why are you worried about what other people think?” Owning a decision is a powerful, heady thing, even if it’s a really stupid decision. Tattoos, piercings, boyfriends, whatever. “I will what I want.”
This is exactly how I first started smoking, trying pot, drinking, and experimented with other drugs. No tattoos yet though. Eschewing rules as a sense of independence is a powerful trip, but then you tend to find out exactly why those rules exist.
Any small group of people loosely-but-truly aligned on something can create powerful vectors by producing public-facing work that’s directed at each other. In reality, scenes seem to need like maybe around 2 dozen people. You need the conflict and collaboration and one-upmanship to push people far out of homeostasis.
Relationships are fucking hard, and to work they need a sort of functional
“economy” (gratitude, laughter, kindness) and waste elimination system (pain,
resentment). Killer signs: contempt, dismissiveness, indifference, constant apology.
you’re choosing the person in life who’s going to upset, disappoint, annoy and frustrate you more than anybody else. See the worst part of the other person the most frequently. Schedule syncing very important. If you don’t have a system You Are Fucked. schedule 1–1 meetings in advance. This is an idea I stole shamelessly from work. Basically, have some time set aside (at least once a month) for the EXPLICIT purpose of discussing difficult things. how to spice up your relationship’ – people think it’s about toys and lingerie but it’s really about exposing vulnerable bits of your psychology to one another.
Flirting is basically this – give moderately strong signals of interest with plausible deniability (for you) and outs (for her), and then be attentive for returned signs of interest and riff off of that.
All communication is lossy and involves trade-offs. A good faith discussion and/or disagreement is sensitive to the fact that the other person has made those trade-offs. If we have a disagreement, we need to identify our respective assumptions, and talk about our respective experiences.
I have a soft spot and lots of compassion for people that are High-decoupling vs those that are low-decoupling. It’s not that one type is better or worse in general, but I bet that most high-decouplers find themselves in STEM and would find it extremely stressful to do something like palliative care nursing or teaching. Likewise, people-people and high-empaths won’t necessarily enjoy dark humor or engineering. For me, dark humor is a form of flirting or play, but for many years I didn’t understand why many people were so uncomfortable with it. I thought everyone was like me. 80% were indifferent, 10% were very hurt and 10% became fast friends for life. As I got older I learned that sort of play is okay, but you have to read the room and make sure everyone involved knows the game you are playing.
Don’t tolerate contempt
Safe spaces are for nurturing, not coddling. The problem is that it only takes 1-5% of clueless outsiders to ruin the experience/atmosphere for everybody.
Ambition:
If you want to make ambitious people waste their time on errands, the way to do it is to bait the hook with prestige. Paul Graham: How to Do What You Love
What would my heroes do? (Need to find some Indie Scientists) – Alexander Shulgin
You should be tweeting what *you* want to see more of. If in doubt, I recommend nerdposting.
I don’t know if it can really be as simple as “just act as if you already knew you could do it”, but sometimes it actually can be. You could maybe distill this down to “be confident”.
Positive affirmations by Scott Adams – it’s like finding out you’re a green-type reality bender and will make you think you live in a simulation. You are likely under-imagining what you can become capable of.
“You have a far greater shot at tasting greatness and fun if you simply write as much as you possibly can, and then some.”
The pottery class story goes like this: A ceramics teacher decided to test a hypothesis experimentally. He split his class into two groups and told the first half: “You will spend the whole semester making one clay pot, and into that you will pour all your energy, thought and skill to make it as perfect as possible.” To the second he said, “I will grade you by quantity, make as many clay pots as you can by the end of the semester.” At the end of the semester he surveyed their work and noted the following: The students that were optimized for quantity produced better clay pots than the perfectionists. By repeating the process over and over and over again, they gained skills, learned taste and had created a short feedback loop to inform the next production cycle. The perfectionists in the meantime, hit their skill ceiling early on with their one pot and spent the remaining time fiddling. Lesson: optimize for quantity. This will create a short Design-Build-Test-Learn (DBTL) cycle which will push your skill ceiling higher. Additionally, since the work will naturally fall on some sort of bell curve of “goodness” with a large body of work one can select the top 10% to present or refine.
“‘I can tolerate anything except intolerance’ sounds cute, silly, paradoxical, like a parlor game. ‘Tolerate anything except contempt” seems like a more intuitive directive to me. Contempt justifies abuse. Contempt is the stepping stone to all kinds of dehumanization.” (64)
Hypothesis: if you do barely anything with your life but take little notes every day, journal, diary, whatever – snapshots of your opinions, impressions, perspectives, predictions – and then you thread these notes over time, say, 10 years… …by the end of it, if you reflect, review, corroborate, verify and discuss them with others, you will have an incredibly robust… mind? worldview? You will deeply appreciate the nature of human reality in a way that you cannot get from any single book or person or experience.
The first rule of smart writing is you must recognise what smart writing is. The cool thing is, you don’t actually need to find the smart angle! Writing is cheap, basically free. Write all the angles. Whatever comes to mind, whatever tickles your fancy. Write stupid, edit smart.
Twitter Thread: https://twitter.com/nicholasfwhite/status/1274856733614186497